90 minutes of uninterrupted drawing of a live model. You choose your media and they facilitate the agenda for the session. This was quite challenging for me because I wouldn’t use my time wisely sporadically in this session. I felt insecure of my ability to translate what I could see. I tend to use materials that can not be removed easily. This encourages me to focus on drawing and not processing. I felt like the more I released of any tension the more fluid my lines were. I could see the tense in my lines in certain poses but I’m glad I can acknowledge what I experienced and my willingness to continue to challenge myself.
These last few days I’ve been in my head about why things happen the way they do, why people do the things they do or why it even matters to me.. This internal conflict drives me every day to make things a little better for those who can’t for themselves. Changing my perspective can be challenging when there’s so much to loose.
I tend to set loose boundaries for others but limit my craft if I feel like I’m imposing on my growth. Sometimes I feel like I push myself more than I should and this creates an internal conflict with me and my work. There’s a constant tug of war in what happens during my creative process. Digging deep require a great deal of patience and reassurance. Being able to quiet myself is a daily obstacle. I like that I can overcome mini obstacle on a daily basis, it gives me reassurance that I’m okay and that it’s done and I can move on. I gain life experiences within my work and that I can not replica one any other way....
5 minutes of productivity is more valuable to a day mindless behavior. Learn to be proud of smaller victories, make it a habit to find a positive in each day.. A win can mean so much to us and we should it as long as it takes until the next. Know your best is yet to come, how can you not be excited about what’s ahead? Happy Monday!